Superior Leadership Skills.

Today I had to say goodbye to my doctors. I have a couple more days of actual work left but today marked the last day I would see my MD buds before embarking on my version of a "Magical Mystery Tour" so to speak. It was easy not to get emotional. I just want out.

I also paid a visit to EHS this morning. My old guidance counselor didn't remember me and looked more like a zombie then ever - if that's even freakin' possible. I dropped off the form for a letter to a man I've seen a million times and somehow always looks different. The beards back, y'all; it's got a salt 'n pepa flavour to it these days. Guess that's what 40 does to a guy, huh? I got three calls after dropping off the envelope. Why San Diego? What'd you get on Physics B? What happened with physics at NYU. I got to hear a little sampling of the letter. Oh it's sweet. And I am eternally grateful for this. You better believe someone is getting something if I get in. Thank you, thank you, and thank you again.

After departing with beads of sweat running down my forehead (that school has horrible temperature regulation issues- then again they always did) the golden eagle and I stopped at home. I ate some tacos (yes, it was 9am) and watched two episodes of Match Game WITHOUT Richard Dawson. Way to break my heart, GSN. I also got a letter from my bud and employer, SVH. I guess he didn't realize it was his job to mail it, because it's sealed in my possession. Again, if I get in, biggest thanks goes out there.

I spent an hour and a half in Walgreens today. Do not ask me why. I have no idea. All I know is that Ricky is guarding sacred items and I spent like $50. Granted, it wasn't as epic as past trips to WalFail but epic nonetheless.

And now it's after midnight and I need to be back at work in approximately seven hours. I could fall asleep. I don't want to. There's too much potential buzzing around; on my phone, on this computer. I'm afraid I might miss something. That's my problem. I always think I'll miss something and then the only thing I end up missing is sleep and class. I shouldn't worry about this kind of thing so much. I should focus on the little things in life...

Like how "afternoon delight" is stuck in my head

or how beds have had the trait of "lonely" for the last few days

or how I will have a cuddle buddy Thursday night and that makes me extremely happy.

Positivity, my friends, is the key to opening your mind to happiness. The moment a negative thought or action crosses that particular synapse, it's all gone. No more negative thoughts. Formulate them in a way where they are difficult to be manipulated in a negative manner. If they come with a negative connotation to begin with, transform them into what they ought to be so you can be who you ought to be.

i'm tainted goods. ---> i live with no regrets.

i want to fix this. ---> i'm happier than ever.

i don't want to leave. ---> it's a new start; a new me.

one of the most adventurous things left us is to go to bed.

for no one can lay a hand on our dreams.

~e.v. lucas